I Wish I Was...

I wish I was happier, smarter too, but instead, I’m how I am, neither of those two.

I wish I was perfect, proper, a lady. Instead, I’m sloppy, and silly, and lazy

I wish I was active and did what I should. Instead, I procrastinate and I’m anything but good

I wish I was selfless and always kind. Instead, I’m selfish and with people I’m blind

I wish I was good at, at least one thing, but I get distracted and lose my spring

I’m lazy and selfish and procrastinate a lot, but that doesn’t distract from who I am not

I am confident and open. I am not at all broken

I love and I care. Even if I’m too much to bear

I try hard to be all the things that I’m not, but instead, I should focus because I forgot

I am who I am and that will not change. Even if I am different. Even if I am strange.

Because no matter what I do. No matter what I say.

I will always be me I will always stay

You cannot spend life wishing it away

The world won’t hold still the world will not stay

You have to hold on

Try your best to be you

And if life gets to be too much just enjoy the view

Because you can’t give up

You can’t give in

You must always hold on

You must always grin

Because you can’t make life different  

You can’t make it change

If you cannot do it adjust your range

Don’t aim for the sun for that is too far

Don’t try to be anything but what you are

Even if you can’t work well

Even if you can’t spell

Even if you aren’t smart

Nobody is art

You must simply try your best

That’s no difficult test

You just have to be who you are

Even if the path is long and far

Don’t wish your life away

Because here I will say

It won’t end well for you

You’ll wish you had pushed through

The pain of the past won’t hurt your present

It will just be a memory no matter how unpleasant

Just laugh it all off

There is no need to scoff

At the way that you once were

Just leave it alone

Left in the stone

There is nothing you can do

Except be totally you